Ups & Downs, Highs & Lows:

What I need right now is just my middle road,

Chaotic or somber either way I feel a bit out of control,

The ups & downs seem so incalculable,

When I’m up I’m a shining star: LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT ME!

Burning like an endless coal,

I become a freight train with the motivation to accomplish any goal,

That “on top of the world” feeling

 where there’s static among my aura if you stand too close,

But even so

I feel it slip away like the curtains close,

and when I’m down I grab some booze and become a restless ghost,

Gone to the world like a comatose,

I watch the phone buzz off my desk and my inbox of unanswered messages overflows,

Waste a few hours staring out the window while the rain comes and goes,

What I’m searching for is neutrality within the middle road,

That sure-footed, balanced-mind people always talk about

That which I’ve never known.